Confessions from the Couch

Confession

Last week was a really really hard week. We had a bit of school violence. . . fighting among girls has gotten out of hand. I had made the decision to leave. It was final. This would be my last year in My District. But I keep thinking, is it the wrong time? Looking at the economy? What if I make the move and get surplus or “reduced” within months of taking a new job? I worry about my skills not fitting that of an suburban or private school climate. Am I too bold? To hood? *sigh* When I think about it all an the comfort (knowing the ropes & the city & friends) I’d be giving up here, I get a little anxious. Although, I’m still submitting applications and getting my resume/portfolio in order . . .I’m scared & insecure.

random mutterings | Miss Teacha | March 5, 2010 2:03 pm

8 Comments

By Beth, March 5, 2010 @ 3:12 pm

Have faith! I went through the same thing 3 years ago. It was the BEST decision I’ve ever made in regards to my career. Good things will happen!
By ricochet, March 5, 2010 @ 5:19 pm

You will thrive!!

Have you decided where you are going? Have you talked with the principal about a recommendation? Peers for the same?

Let us know if we can help!
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By Margaret, March 5, 2010 @ 6:52 pm

Put out those apps and see what comes from it. It’s what I’m telling Ashley about grad school too. It’s stressful and scary when you don’t know where life is leading you. But it could be to a way better place!!
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By jen, March 5, 2010 @ 8:11 pm

I have been considering leaving my school too. It is definitely a difficult decision to make. But, I believe it is fear that keeps us in the same place and never allowing us to spread our wings and make a change.
By Kary, March 5, 2010 @ 8:50 pm

I think when you come and see my school you will love it. Here if you get surplused they usually put you at another school in the district. Our school is growing or staying the same next year so we are not losing any teachers, as a matter of fact we need 1 or 2 more and we may have some that are leaving if they get AP jobs.
By teachermom, March 6, 2010 @ 5:56 am

Change is scary. Have you ever read the book “Who Moved My Cheese?” My boss recommended it when we were going through layoffs…

In your heart, you know that it’s time to move on. Try not to let your fears take over. Maybe every time you think of something scary, consciously make yourself think of something positive. Maybe even write the positives down so you can look at the list when you feel anxious. You are going to do just fine where ever you land. You are beyond dedicated and are a great find for *any* district.

Many virtual hugs!
By David Duez, March 6, 2010 @ 10:37 am

Well, as you know… in our district we have build 3 new high schools in the past 4 years! Two brand new middle schools. There is no surplussing going on. So that might give you some comfort. There are parts of the world that are not as down with this economy. Just roll the dice and see what happens. You never know until you try.
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By Miss Teacha, March 6, 2010 @ 10:30 pm

Thanks for your encouragement. It means a lot. Sometimes fear can be crippling and I think that is why I have stayed where I am for sooo long.

@Ricochet: I haven’t decided where I am going yet. I’m just making plans and hopefully by April/May, I’ll have some interviews and make some decisions. I haven’t talked with my Principal about a rec. I am actually terrified of doing it. I’ll tell him that I am updating my portfolio and would like a current recommendation.

@Jen You can do it girl, you went overseas. . . .someone will prob snap you up in a quick sec.

@Teachermom, I guess I’ll be looking for “who moved my cheese” the next time I’m in the store. Maybe I can find an audioversion and listen to it while I’m driving over springbreak